Can you believe it? We are half way through 2016! I feel slightly overwhelmed at this fact – I had planned so much! I wanted to get so much done – I am not nearly there yet! Time needs to slow down and wait for me to catch up.
Take a look at my goals, these are what I wanted to get done in 2016. Some things I have achieved, others not nearly enough. Part of my problem is I hate letting people down. If I say I am going to do something, I hate it when a plan doesn’t come together. I make every effort to achieve my goals but what I have learnt lately is that life sometimes has other plans. You can’t let it hold you back though, you may stumble, fall flat down on your face – the trick is to get back and get moving as quick as you can.
Run more: I can’t say this has really been happening lately – I took the month of June off running due to an injury and then I fell ill. But I did sign up to a running coach, I have made more plans to run more – and before I got sick, I was feeling stronger with my running.
First 42km marathon: This is booked and paid for – I am running Kaapsehoop 42km on the 5 November, 4 months and counting!
Get debt free: I have to share this with you in detail in a separate post, but we set up our budget properly and for the first time ever, we are seeing our debt go down! We went away on holiday in June, and it was the first time when we didn’t have to use our credit cards to pay for it – we saved up in advance and paid it without incurring further debt!
Hike often: I realise now this goal was not very clear – how much is often? I have been on one hike when we went away to Pilgrims Rest over Easter. I have plans to do a few local hikes in the coming months. July perhaps will be a good month to hike, I like hiking in winter – its not too hot!
Cut sugar: I have tried this a few times but I have decided that last year 1 July I cut sugar for 3 months – So I am going to try that again… wish me luck!
Must travel: we been lucky enough to go on holiday twice this year – Pilgrim’s Rest over Easter and Drakensberg in June. We have a few friends getting married in the second have of this year which will require a few trips to the midlands etc, and then we have the highly anticipated First EVER Kruger trip in August/September. Seriously, I have lived in SA most of my life and I have never been to Kruger before!!
Overall I think I am doing pretty well with my goals – one step at a time, this year has been challenging but what it has shown me is just how determined I am.
How are your goals for 2016 looking? What are your plans for the last half of the year?
I guess I should explain why I have been MIA on the blog. I can say it’s because I got injured and I ran out of things to say. How do you have a running blog if you are not running? It’s partly true. But it’s also because I had another moment of weakness. You guys know that one of the reasons I started this blog was because I do suffer from depression. It was ever really talked about – most people chalked up to me being sensitive. But ya, the darkness crept back in. I guess it shows that running does really help me. When I am running, even when I am complaining about running, I am happier. My head is in a better space, running clears out the self-doubt and clutter that I put into it by overthinking every situation.
It comes over subtly. The darkness just creeps in. It starts with something small and before I know it, it has hit, moved in and here to stay. It takes all my energy to try pick up the pieces and move on. In a moment of self-doubt, I did something completely unlike me. I reached out to utter strangers. I posted my feelings on a few Facebook groups I have joined. They are blogging groups, and my post revolved around my feelings of how to crack this blog thing. How to become an influencer. How to get brands to notice me. It was all about how to get noticed. If I am really truthful it was a silent cry to just be heard, and seen – by anyone. Anyone who would listen.
Then the craziest thing happened. I was heard. A handful of amazing bloggers responded with words of encouragement, advice and in general, a reality check.
I never started this blog to make money. I am not going to lie, I would love for that to happen. I am working hard to try and make it happen. But the main reason I started this blog was because I wanted to share my experiences. Share my setbacks and how I overcame them. Show people that anyone can set goals and achieve them. Show the world that my weakness is my biggest asset – I genuinely care too much about people. I want them to succeed, I want to inspire them to succeed. So that is what I am doing. I’m throwing out the routines, the schedules, the set framework – I am going back to basics, back to how I started this journey. I will blog truthfully, not frivolously. I will blog with the purpose to share and inspire – I am not fake. I am real. I battle just like everyone to meet my goals. I set big bad goals that scare me – but I also know how determined and strong I can be. I will achieve my goals and I can’t wait for the journey to begin again.
This week I take off another week of training because I fell sick, making it a full month of no training. There will be 4 months left to train for my first ever marathon – 42km. It’s a long way to go, my journey will be tough. Make no mistake there will be more setbacks I am sure – the journey is never a straight path. It has twists and turns and you know what? That is half the fun! Wouldn’t life be boring if you knew exactly how things were going to play out? Here is to another setback, let us celebrate this moment. It is of course the moment I pick myself up, dust myself off and take my first step forward.
On the 4th of June I fell before I ran the MTN 21km, I didn’t realize then that I had hurt my ankle. It swelled into an unsightly cankle and required physio and a bit of strapping. I had a ligament sprain. It meant that I couldn’t run. My physio (aka my sister in law) suggested I take a week or two and rest. I decided to listen to my body and pushed out my training for an extra week. I was feeling pretty good, the swelling had gone down and I was ready to get back to my training. And then I got sick.
Seriously? I can’t make this stuff up. It started with a dull headache. I thought it was because I was feeling a bit grumpy, emotional, and annoyed on a personal level. But the headache persisted. Last weekend, I woke up on Sunday and just felt so flat, my throat was sore, my head hurt still, I felt like I was getting sick but not really sick – have you ever felt that? It’s like an in-between sickness. It’s a frustrating edge of sickness – you are not sick enough to warrant forking out cash to see the doctor, or stay at home, but you still feel like crap.
On Monday I begrudgingly got out of bed and went to work, but on the way to work, with my head still pounding I decided it wasn’t right that I be feeling like this on and off for nearly 2 weeks – something wasn’t right. I decided I needed to head to the doctor. Turns out I have sinusitis – sinus headaches, inflamed glands – real sick. I got booked off for two days, and I am grateful for the sleep and rest. Today the pug has comforted me greatly, he loves a good snuggle. I am hoping that with some pug cuddles I will start feeling better soon.
Last week I shared with you that I had hurt myself just before running the MTN 21km. I pulled a ligament in my ankle and I have been visiting with the physio to get it sorted out. What it means is that I haven’t run in a week, and to be honest, I am not going to run this week either.
The swelling has gone down a lot but it still is massively bruised, and it hurts like hell. My ankle is literally throbbing.
Last Friday, my physio was very happy with my progress, I was able to walk without a limp and the swelling had come down. She suggested I try out a short 1 km/ a round the block loop, on the weekend to see how things go. But on Friday eve, my ankle swelled up again and I decided against running on it.
I really don’t want to injure myself further, I would rather not run for one or two weeks and fully rest my ankle so that it heals, than risk having months off my training because I tried to get back to running too soon.
So I am listening to my body, and trying to distract myself from not running. Thankfully with this cold weather, it makes snuggling on the couch A LOT easier!
Have you ever injured yourself? How long did you take off your training before you felt like you could run again?